Pressure...

For the pass few days, I have been not feeling good. I have been thinking alot about my life... everything. It's hard to cope it sometimes. I tend to think nonsense and I felt that my instinct is coming back. I'm afraid now.. I felt like I'm in a total darkness where thee's noone to guide me out. =(

Been crying out loud to make myself relief and tired but my mind is bothering me. Why do I have to feel this way? Why do I have to go thru all this things again? Why I can't have peace of mind? I need a break before I gone mad...

I'm feeling Pressured...

The Past... The Present... The Future...

The Good & The Bad....

When I'm with him, I'm so happy like I'm in a cloud nine. I love him so much that I felt it's only me and him alone. I felt like we are meant for each other. When he is in a good mood, he is like the best guy I ever met. Always try to make me happy and treat me like his real "babey". He is a person with full of characters. A bad-tempered person, egoistic, never listen to people's advice till he need it, Mr. Perfect, Mr. Branded (hehehe), vain-pot, determine, soft-hearted (towards gals), attractive (in a sense), "moderate" sweet-talker. He also can consider "heart-breaker" but he can be a loving, caring, protective person. Oh yeah, he is a person who never mend is words... =P

He is a person who have change my life. He taught me lots of things. Love, reality, and the "headache". I have been going thru thick and thin with him. Been a long time with him, is this how much I understand and know him? I hope so... *to be continue..*

Anti-Polygamy

How will you feel when someone that you loved, love someone else? I was thinking of that from just now. He loved you, but tho he still wants to find someone to love him. I guess this case wasn't rare and it's kinda common in this world now. I read about polygamous few days ago. It's kinda scary (for me) knowing that the person that you love or going to be marry to will end up being with someone else.

I don't really agree with polygamy and that's why lots of women in this world nowadays rather to be a single mother or being single the whole life so that they won't get hurt. I don't want to get hurt too. It's better to love yourself than love your bf or husband whom will cheat on you or have an affair behind your back. Males will never feel the same way how we (females) felt towards them.

We are being so loyal, faithful and care so much for them and yet the males don't appreciate us. Why are the males in this world change till like that? What happened to those males like our parents time? Or our grandparents time when they never dare to find mistress or having affair. Actually I should said "majority" of them don't do that compare to now generations.

Are the women being domestic or being too independent till the male felt lonely and out till they find others? We are humans. We felt the same way how males does (in a way). We are carrying a duty as a woman, a lover, a wife, a mother and a daughter-in-law. Do you think carrying this burden is easy? Try being like us and you guys will know what kind of position we females getting into.

If we, females have the same thinking as the males, I think in this world, everyone have someone else in their life. I'm not talking bout 1 person in your life but more than that. I hope all guys and gals will never change their honesty, truthfully, care, love and also security. If this is so, please do think what will happened to you if that person did the same thing to you as what you did to him/her? "Put your position in that person's shoes" first before you take a step or your action. Be responsible towards your actions and appreciate the person around you before you regret.

I wish everyone the best in your life, future and love-life. Muacks..

" How much you earn is not important.

Women leave men, not because they are unhappy

with what he can provide,

but because they are emotionally unfulfilled."

"Monogamy turns women on.

A sexual liaison with another woman is seen as

the ultimate betrayal and good reason to

finish a relationship."

Life's Journey.... Ended

My life's journey have been ended just like that.... Things change drastically.... It take longer time to heal... Maybe not?